Tuesday, November 26, 2013 Tuesday, September 17, 2013
When you’re depressed, your self esteem is at absolute zero. To stand up from the sofa and walk to the fridge is an act of unbelievable effort. Everything that happens is because you are a cunt. It’s because I’m a wanker, it’s because I’m an arsehole. You sort of have a Tourette view of yourself. You think about death all the time. Even if you’re not feeling suicidal, you’re just constantly aware of death and aware of your own death and how welcome it would be. Stephen Fry (via durianquotes)
Tuesday, September 10, 2013

I have a post I want to write for my advocacy blog, but I’m scared. 

I’m scared that someone will take it wrong. That my admission of having periodic thoughts will instead be read as one of those final notes. It wouldn’t be, but there’s the risk that someone will take it that way. 

I’m scared that someone will do something that will endanger my rights to live independently. All it takes sometimes is someone saying the wrong worries to the wrong people for a person to have that taken away from them. And then all the efforts and fail safes that that person has put into place to make it safe for themselves will be for naught, because the wrong person will sit in judgment on what is and isn’t “safe” for a person with certain disabilities.

I’m scared that my choices about treatment will be denied me. Trust me, I know at what point I need to go to the hospital for these issues. I’ve been in voluntarily before- and I’ve also been in coercively. I don’t want to add you to the list of people who have coerced my treatment, and I don’t want to be an involuntary either. If you think that the hospital gives you the same choices as out patient services, of which I’m in, then you’ve never been or never disagreed with a treatment course. Never had someone tell you your choices are a symptom. A Hospital is a last resort for a reason. 

But… But. But there are things that need to be said, need to come out so that someone else isn’t going to live with the same sort of memories and doubts that I live with. So I feel like I have to write. 

And just pray that no one decides the risk is too great for me.

Saturday, December 29, 2012 Friday, November 25, 2011
flutterflyinvasion:

chronicillnesscat:

[Image: 6-piece blue colored background with a Siamese cat with blue eyes. Text reads: “Roomie calls you lazy for sleeping all day.  Depression and apathy ≠ laziness, bitch”]

uh, was this made for cpmeanscrazyperson?????????

flutterflyinvasion:

chronicillnesscat:

[Image: 6-piece blue colored background with a Siamese cat with blue eyes. Text reads: “Roomie calls you lazy for sleeping all day.  Depression and apathy ≠ laziness, bitch”]

uh, was this made for cpmeanscrazyperson?????????

Thursday, November 3, 2011
flutterflyinvasion:

chronicillnesscat:

[Image: 6-piece blue colored background with a Siamese cat with blue eyes. Top text reads: “If you’re depressed, get up and do something about it!” Bottom text reads: “I CAN’T.”]

(There are days I can’t bring myself to *shower*, much less join a club or activity, mom.)

Ohh, cpmeanscrazyperson is going to have something to say about this…..

flutterflyinvasion:

chronicillnesscat:

[Image: 6-piece blue colored background with a Siamese cat with blue eyes. Top text reads: “If you’re depressed, get up and do something about it!” Bottom text reads: “I CAN’T.”]


(There are days I can’t bring myself to *shower*, much less join a club or activity, mom.)

Ohh, cpmeanscrazyperson is going to have something to say about this…..

Saturday, October 15, 2011
If you need fresh paint for the bathroom, go to Sherwin Williams; if you need treatment for your depression, pop a few pills. In a bootstrapping culture like the US, this can be a dangerous precedent to set, as it creates the idea that taking medication is “easy” and that people who want to use medications as part of their treatment plans aren’t willing to work hard to get better. This attitude undermines the complexity and variation of mental illness and it also contributes to the culture of shaming that surrounds pharmaceuticals and other forms of therapy. We’re All Mad Here:  Pharmeceutical Advertising and Messaging about Mental Illness (via flutterflyinvasion)
Sunday, September 18, 2011

looking for information resources on PTSD and Triggers

nekobakaz:

(Excuse me as I attempt to express myself in the best way that I can, with feelings that I might not be doing the best of job.)

As part of ASDay this year, we’re allowing people to write about anything they want about their lives.  However, we want ASDay to be accessible to everyone, and that means filtering triggering posts from safe posts for people, so that it’s safe for everyone. 

We’re looking for information resources from PTSD and mental health community that explains these issues, so that we know how to filter and address issues, and so that we can help educate participants and readers who don’t know.  For this, we would prefer information from the actual community, from people who actually have PTSD and other anxiety and depression issues who are triggered by topics.  We want to know what information and resources you recommend. 

Again, we want to make ASDay safe for everyone to attend and participate, and that means respecting people’s boundaries.  We want to treat everyone with respect and dignity, but we freely admit that we have no clue where to look to educate ourselves on how to do that, and find a lot of “official” and clinical resources to be quite lacking.

So please, what do we need to know?  And what are good resources for people to learn more?

Important Y’all. Consider this as me asking as well- Corina asked me if I had any good links on the topic and I’ve been having data retrieval issues with my brain. 

Friday, April 1, 2011

last time i checked i was a human being not a broken down machine

codexindex:

which is why i really hate discussion of my depression as a ‘malfunctioning machine’, a ‘short in the circuits’, ‘faulty wiring’, etc.

like, no.
can we not?