NO brain shut up
I have a post I want to write for my advocacy blog, but I’m scared.
I’m scared that someone will take it wrong. That my admission of having periodic thoughts will instead be read as one of those final notes. It wouldn’t be, but there’s the risk that someone will take it that way.
I’m scared that someone will do something that will endanger my rights to live independently. All it takes sometimes is someone saying the wrong worries to the wrong people for a person to have that taken away from them. And then all the efforts and fail safes that that person has put into place to make it safe for themselves will be for naught, because the wrong person will sit in judgment on what is and isn’t “safe” for a person with certain disabilities.
I’m scared that my choices about treatment will be denied me. Trust me, I know at what point I need to go to the hospital for these issues. I’ve been in voluntarily before- and I’ve also been in coercively. I don’t want to add you to the list of people who have coerced my treatment, and I don’t want to be an involuntary either. If you think that the hospital gives you the same choices as out patient services, of which I’m in, then you’ve never been or never disagreed with a treatment course. Never had someone tell you your choices are a symptom. A Hospital is a last resort for a reason.
But… But. But there are things that need to be said, need to come out so that someone else isn’t going to live with the same sort of memories and doubts that I live with. So I feel like I have to write.
And just pray that no one decides the risk is too great for me.
looking for information resources on PTSD and Triggers
(Excuse me as I attempt to express myself in the best way that I can, with feelings that I might not be doing the best of job.)
As part of ASDay this year, we’re allowing people to write about anything they want about their lives. However, we want ASDay to be accessible to everyone, and that means filtering triggering posts from safe posts for people, so that it’s safe for everyone.
We’re looking for information resources from PTSD and mental health community that explains these issues, so that we know how to filter and address issues, and so that we can help educate participants and readers who don’t know. For this, we would prefer information from the actual community, from people who actually have PTSD and other anxiety and depression issues who are triggered by topics. We want to know what information and resources you recommend.
Again, we want to make ASDay safe for everyone to attend and participate, and that means respecting people’s boundaries. We want to treat everyone with respect and dignity, but we freely admit that we have no clue where to look to educate ourselves on how to do that, and find a lot of “official” and clinical resources to be quite lacking.
So please, what do we need to know? And what are good resources for people to learn more?
Important Y’all. Consider this as me asking as well- Corina asked me if I had any good links on the topic and I’ve been having data retrieval issues with my brain.
last time i checked i was a human being not a broken down machine
which is why i really hate discussion of my depression as a ‘malfunctioning machine’, a ‘short in the circuits’, ‘faulty wiring’, etc.
can we not?